Broken Solitude

I know that it was just in my last post that I said I would not stop writing this blog, but after the recent occurrence of circumstances, I’ve had a change of heart. I think it’s best for my emotional well-being to stay clear of this virtual space, at least for a little while, for whatever time it takes for this place to feel safe to me once again.

As I have said before, there are as many reasons to blog as there are people who blog, and for me, this has been my virtual place of release. I don’t come here expecting to be guarded and having to defend myself from those who come here for other reasons than to read or share their ideas.

I come here to be a part of a community where its members express their thoughts and emotions through “Writing”, through creativity, through poetry, through art. I come here to be in the company of “Strangers”, those more able to be unbiased. 

I don’t come here to discuss my day-to-day existence with people from my everyday world … that is what the dinner table or the cafe down the street or the phone or email is for.

I don’t come here to reconnect with people from my past … that is what facebook is for.

I come here, to this very private place, to write about private and not so private things. And even though we, as bloggers, choose to publish, it doesn’t mean we invite others into our physical essence. When we publish, we invite others to “see” our words or view the images we display. And yes, our words are often twisted, married to interpretation, or stolen, or judged, and that is the price we pay for the publication of our words. But the publication is not and is never meant to be an invitation into our personal space.

So, when others blatantly disregard my wishes, continue to use this place for something other than what I want it to be, it distracts me from my writing and breaks my solitude. It diminishes the purpose of this place.

So, after careful thinking, and realizing I am not interested in playing a battle of wills game, I think it’s best to stay away from this distraction and focus my writing on the completion of my current novel.

I leave this place, perhaps temporarily, with sincere thanks to those of you who have read my writings and who have left comments. All my best to all of you who understand the valuable gift of writing, and of course to all those who struggle with life and seeking a place of belonging.